Current mood:	uncomfortable
Current music:	trivium

hmm im just a lil bit
im the biggest hypocryte i know i look back at my old entrys and how so many of them say "im done with it fer good now" ill never be done with it. this i dont know if it can ever be over but thats just how it goes.. how i work..

i found something thats begun to distract me but the distraction only lasted so long.. i found something that let me sleep at night but im afraid thats all i have it for, not genuine care. i told that person why i am the way i am they didnt really want to know but i thought they needed to know well that was dumb but it needed to be done. the only reason why i did it was to perhaps get out of what i was in to maybe go back to where i was before. that wont happen until i don't want it to and i know that and its been over a month only 1-2 more to go its clock work. and im expecting it which in the long run will make me very wrong.. oh well im trying..


that which we feel gives us remorse pain and struggle. ache hallowness and mutually self-destruction. a tear falls while a smile of insanity cracks. confusion brought by those around you and the unknowing of how to act upon this bipolar behavior. cought not in a triangle though a long line where none come out with full contentment of emotion. appologenic yet infuriated. hope and time that has not come yet this is what one has left to face.